Poetry Suite by Yoshika Wason
"how do I stop being so yesnoyes?"
Poetry by Yoshika Wason
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Book Fair
After report card conferences
I led my parents to the Scholastic book fair
where I read Ripley’s Believe it or Not!
We looked at photos of a woman
with fingernails so long
they curled like stiff ribbons.
I turned the page to a man with tattoos
covering 98% of his body. Then
I saw shrunken heads created
from the enemies of ancient people.
I flipped the page again. A halting “oh”
from my parents came as a response.
Unexpectedly, we had come across
a picture of personal significance:
a photo of my parent’s wedding day.
I wasn’t able to find their young faces
among the thousands of brides and grooms
that they shared their day with—but I was certain
that they were just beyond the camera’s scope.
I closed the book but the image stayed with me.
I began to wonder if Mom and Dad really
did belong with the strange and the unusual.
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Mother Tongue
If laughter is my second language then lying is my third. I cut my tongue on sharp words
as I learn to lie about where I’m going and who I’m seeing. I cut my hair when it’s too alive
with tongues I blame mother Medusa for stealing my laugh as if I had no way to stop
the negative space from expanding until we are no longer in the same frame.
Now when I start to laugh my lips move but no sound comes out my tongue spasms
like a phantom limb. A squid newly beheaded still remembers how to dance.
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M**nies
Who do you think you are? The question on
my college application says something
else. Religious affiliation:____________?
My dad says leave it blank because if they
know, they’ll change their mind about you, but I still
write “Moonie.” Turns out, he was wrong.
The word invades. This time as a warning
about love bombing from my art teacher.
She cuts m**nies into syllables and
I help abstract it by rearranging
the letters. From m-o-o-n-i-e-s there are new words:
no
omens
some
noise
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Spreading the word of god means ignoring
signs like “no soliciting” in front of
a barbershop where a hairstylist flicks
the word MOONIE to me then points
to the door. I’m stripped of my words and leave,
ashamed.
While packing for college, my parents gift
me a suitcase, camera, and journal
before starting the three hour drive to my dorm.
An hour into I-95, I turn
on the radio. An ad, the weather,
then breaking news: THE LEADER
OF THE MOONIES HAS DIED TODAY.
The meaning of the word is held in limbo:
moonies
without
Reverend
Moon
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Light of Glory
First, the lightening of glory
flashes blue-green,
the last days are here.
Next, a kick of thunder
from the inside
belly church, brings new life.
Apocalyptic winds mixed
with a rain of metalware
flood the earth.
From the swell
new Jesus is born.
Write his origin story
hunched over dim light
playing his rebirth
over and over, soaking
fact with myth
until the two bleed,
mixed into the same color.
You think your labor is the stuff
of history books,
a museum display,
at least a family heirloom.
Preserving your memory
into a cultural artifact but
you don’t know
that future anthropologists
born in the time after the last days
study your texts to try to answer
questions like
how are myths born?
and
who gets to revise history?
Your writing gives answers
to questions that you never delivered.
They fold in on you.
Who was this new Ezra?
A dedicated follower
or unreliable narrator?
This time you don’t
get to control
the story.
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Ghost Marriage
I think seventeen is too young to marry die
but they still gave him a bride after his funeral.
They say dead presidents & Russian ballerinas
& North Korean leaders got a wedding invite.
Congratulations Condolences
to the newly wedded couple & widowed bride.
Note: on January 2, 1984, Heung Jin Moon died at age 17 after being in a car accident. On February 20, 1984, Hoon Sook “Julia” Pak married Heung Jin. Members believe that Heung Jin continues his ministry from heaven.
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Reversed Moon
2 a.m. search history:
How does a crayfish_
How does a crayfish breathe?
How does a crayfish molt?
How does a crayfish know when it’s time to leave the water?
What I mean is, how do I stop being so yesnoyes?
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It’s 2 a.m. and my search
history blurs so I cut
the deck in thirds; pick a card,
any card and draw a reversed moon.
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Tonight I decide to finally leave;
see my shell glisten wet as I claw to shore,
antenna pointing moonward.
Good bye,
good bye,
goodbye.
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Header image courtesy of Joshua Zirschky. To view his Photographer Feature, go here.