Deathwish 002: Sage
“the utter destruction and death of everything I have ever known”
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8/1 Dream
I am at some sort of large gathering, a party, full of cocktails and inane chit-chat. Everyone I know is there. Red pulsing lights start going off, startling everyone, some kind of alarm. Two friends, small children, hold each hand, and we start running down a long ramp that is the only way out of the building. We pass an empty and silent street with a tricycle sitting on the sidewalk. No one else is around and the sense of urgency to get indoors and safe is palpable. We run through a library to a basement fallout shelter. Somehow I have lost the children, but there are guards now herding me past wire fences, pointing guns at my face. Downward, underground, into the dark I move. And there are bunkers, long covered trenches in the ground, enough space for one person each, sitting cold, like tombs. I jump into a hole and a wooden folding basement-type door closes over me.
Above me in the dim light I make out spiderwebs and the eggs of spiders. I reach out to crush the eggs but I stop myself.
We might be the only life left.
The webs become much clearer.
The explosion I have been expecting erupts and I remember to shut my eyes. I see flashes and green afterimages. I am terrified and realize this is a dream and try to wake myself up. Then I realize this is NOT a dream. An unshakeable feeling of reality sets in. I am not dreaming. I am awake and have just experienced the utter destruction and death of everything I have ever known.
Then I wake.
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Sage is from New Jersey, and currently lives in Portland, OR.