Steady by Allison LaSorda

Editor Matty Byloos, Fiction, June 8th, 2016

"...I’d reveal that they’d have a tough choice to make..."

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You might look at me now and think I’m broken. But I used to work as a healer. How I came to this is about how you’d expect. I was up at my friend Bill’s camp by the Miramichi for the long weekend. We had a fire going one night and in the sparks of flames I saw this dancing figure wearing purple—which I later realized was violet, the third eye chakra—and decided I’d had this vision, and the vision had to mean something different for me. I told Bill, I’d have to move on to help people. I told him I was on a quest to become a new man. Bill said he didn’t see any purple but he was happy for me.

I didn’t learn any of the physical healing traditions. No plant remedies or mushroom brews. Those traditions take a lot of study time and I needed to hit the ground running. I needed to connect people to other states of being and other dimensions. Spiritual healing was the right fit for me at the time. I listened to tapes and took out library books on shamanism and clairvoyant readings, and memorized them. I drove four hours to this lecture on soul retrieval by a guru named Sage Walker, which I’m told is her given name. It left me steady on my path. I was pretty sure I had a gift for healing.

I got set up on Tuesdays and Thursday above a shop called Cultures and at first waited around a lot. I changed the tablecloths and incense to set the mood and used my meditation bowl. A couple clients came to me by default from the previous medium, who’d gone back to journalism school in the fall. He left me some notes, though, so soon enough I was trustworthy and churning out good readings.

New people started arriving here and there. Students asked me: What does my future hold? Will I pass biology? Who will love me? Other people asked about their dead relatives or the lottery or the odd estranged kid. Those got pretty tough some days. I told them new ways of relating to their journey, but those ways were the same for each of them. I tried real hard to be original otherwise, and never used a spirit animal twice. With each visitor, I’d reveal that they’d have a tough choice to make soon. And they’d nod their heads gravely, knowingly, like I understood their situation deeply, like they got the chills.

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Cover image by FAITH47. To see more of her work, click here.

writer Allison LaSordaAllison LaSorda’s writing has appeared in Brick, The Fiddlehead, PANK, and Riddle Fence. She lives in Toronto..


Matty Byloos

Matty Byloos is Co-Publisher and a Contributing Editor for NAILED. He was born 7 days after his older twin brother, Kevin Byloos. He is the author of 2 books, including the novel in stories, ROPE ('14 SDP), and the collection of short stories, Don't Smell the Floss ('09 Write Bloody Books).